I saw this today from one of my favorite author's Paulo Coelho and just had to share....
One doesn’t love in order to do what is good or to help or to protect someone. If we act that way, we are perceiving the other as a simple object, and we seeing ourselves as wise and generous persons. This has nothing to do with love. To love is to be in communion with the other and to discover in that other the spark of God.
You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.
Now my rant....
What is it too be in love with someone??? I can honestly say I don't know. I have never been in love. I have been hurt, I have lusted, have had crushes after some men, but I have never been in love.. And the funniest thing out of all of this...I am probably the most romantic out there of all of my friends...I was always the one that thought and hoped that there was/is someone out there for all of us. All I ever wanted was someone to love me as much as I loved them and when they put their arms around me I felt safe and loved.
I think it is because I would never let anyone in, my walls would go up even from the time from when I was young. I learned to cope with things by putting walls up, only letting certain people in my "bubble". Those that were there in the good and the bad. I used to be very outgoing when I was young. Then I had some things happen in my life and boom! I became the shyest person you would probably ever know. It was strange for some people to understand and I am still not sure if they do. But that's who I became. I still have a hard time even as an adult to not be shy around people after I have been out of circulation for awhile or am nervous to say Hi to someone I knew a longtime ago, in case they don't remember who I am. I even sometimes become socially inept. But, life is about learning and that's what I intend to do...
But this saying spoke to me earlier.... letting me know that what I thought was love, really wasn't and that I have to take the risk, let someone in and let the walls fall down. To look from the person inside and learn to trust again.....
Peace,
Stephanie
